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starfrostingYou said, "I just need someone to call me on my shit" and I remember thinking how stupidly self-indulgent that sounded. In that context it is.
But today an image flashed through my body and I realized, damn, I want someone to grab my collar and say, "Oh, you like that I'm dominant do ya?" and make my heart leap in realization of the reality of power. I need someone to call me on my shit about my fantasies of bottoming to a butch top, make that real so fear rushes immediately to excitement somewhere between my solar plexus + throat and pours down- I'm thinking specifically of one person who I don't really know, but has hinted publicly at hir preliction for being in control and I thought about her smoothly muscled torso suggested by her white shirts and leather jacket. I'm not gonna reveal the person, but let's just say hir name kinda rhymes with cake. That's not obvious. ;)
So yeah, there's a difference between fantasy and reality and dammit I need someone to call me on it.
But today an image flashed through my body and I realized, damn, I want someone to grab my collar and say, "Oh, you like that I'm dominant do ya?" and make my heart leap in realization of the reality of power. I need someone to call me on my shit about my fantasies of bottoming to a butch top, make that real so fear rushes immediately to excitement somewhere between my solar plexus + throat and pours down- I'm thinking specifically of one person who I don't really know, but has hinted publicly at hir preliction for being in control and I thought about her smoothly muscled torso suggested by her white shirts and leather jacket. I'm not gonna reveal the person, but let's just say hir name kinda rhymes with cake. That's not obvious. ;)
So yeah, there's a difference between fantasy and reality and dammit I need someone to call me on it.
