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vroom vroom "even though it's his"
Jul. 14th, 2005 01:12 amThe car mechanic referred to me with male pronouns, and my mom was there which was good practice for keeping my elation under control. He's this totally sweet local man in his 50s, and I don't really know how I passed since I wasn't even binding today but I did. What the fuck.
. . .
I'm feeling so much calmer after getting good advice from folks who know what they're talking about on so many levels-- the sadomasochistic, the spiritual, etc. It's not even about the one particular thing for which I needed some of their expertise so much as it is a sort of delight at all the energy and focus people can have.
I feel enlivened, encouraged to run my energy, clear my head a bit and drop into a more deep awareness. I feel the need to get involved in work that is fed by this, that changes shit little by little.
This must be that space between Litha and Lughnassadh.
. . .
I'm feeling so much calmer after getting good advice from folks who know what they're talking about on so many levels-- the sadomasochistic, the spiritual, etc. It's not even about the one particular thing for which I needed some of their expertise so much as it is a sort of delight at all the energy and focus people can have.
I feel enlivened, encouraged to run my energy, clear my head a bit and drop into a more deep awareness. I feel the need to get involved in work that is fed by this, that changes shit little by little.
This must be that space between Litha and Lughnassadh.
