we're moved by desire which isn't even heliocentric

[starfrosting]

like early April outside.
shined my shoes yesterday. that is one of the most satisfying things in the world. smelled like shoe polish all throughout my seminar.
buffing my nails.
filing off rough edges, in the grander sense.
my heart is all about opening, opening, opening wide once I have a cup of coffee. seriously.
caffeine works magic. diy anti-blues.
not anti the blues, just anti the 'end of the semester and I'm a fuck-up' dumps that yr down in.
only thing that would make it better is if a big wind picked up.
I think I deserve a nap. I wish I had Nietzsche on tape so I could fall asleep listening to Thus Spoke Zarathustra cos I don't want to use my eyes right now.
Or paragraphs.

love!

Comments

[starfrosting.livejournal.com]

Yeah I'd imagine klonopin plus caffeine equals something which is not a buzz.

[kaiaroo.livejournal.com]

well, that and pot seems to work.

ive tried all sorts of SSRIs and mood-stabilizers... and honestly this just seems like its affecting my body and mind in a much more simple way; its also the only thing to actually help so far.

but yeah, no more "buzzing on caffeine" after all the shit that ive put in my body. :shrugs: maybe if i quit for a long while...