seminar tuesday

There were a lot of moments in my classes today where I felt a sort of anxious defensiveness give way. The resulting moments of (foolish?) openness were actually pretty good. I have more reading than I can remember in recent history, but I think it feels that way mostly because the corresponding *workload* feels so overwhelming, in terms of timing, in terms of topic, all of that. I am trying to maintain my sense of love for learning and excitement and being back in an academic environment, rather than delving into the depths of hopelessness and overwhelmption (I know it's made up but it's the only one that fits.) So, tonight, after a drink with Matt and Seth I'll go read Adam Smith and some Hesiod and some Merleau-Ponty though probably not all tonight and then I will wake up and meet with Professor McCarthy to talk about me being his research assistant and then I will go to Weight Lifting and my day will commence.